I'm pretty proud of how this turned out considering how little time I had to do it, but I REALLY wanted to enter this contest so I made time. The content is... well it's a bit embarrassing to show. I mean I've been meaning to draw some black stars, so I was going to make this anyway. I chose this somewhat minor (not really minor) one to start this off. I do some harsher ones after making some light hearted strips.
This basically shows how people treat my hard work. If I work on a project, then I get a normal good job, but if people have something about me they think is annoying then I'll try to stop. Now I don't do this for just anyone. They have to be important: a best friend or a parent. It doesn't have to be a big thing... but they won't recognize my efforts (even though I completely get rid of the annoyance) and will even treat me harsher than before I got rid of it.
With the best friend, she didn't like how I liked silence when I watched things for the first time, and I liked others to really get into it if it was their first time too. She felt she couldn't enjoy it. I just never watched things for the first time with her, and if it's her first, I let her talk all she wanted. I didn't even have to mess up. Our convo lagged, and when I asked if we were ready to unpause the TV. I she sighed, and sunk into her chair all annoyed... I felt so hurt, because I was embarrassed that I made her feel that way, and I tried so hard to make her feel comfortable.
With a past roommate... I was bullied for 10 weeks before the housing found her somewhere else to stay. I couldn't talk constantly being told that I was unsociable and negative. I've never been called negative before. She wanted me to go out to (drinking) parties to meet people (possible future employees) and ignore my work to talk to her 24/7. I was working a lot because I was taking two studio classes with lots of work. My friends were gone for the quarter. I went out to lectures and workshops to meet actual future employees in a professional setting. I was a good student, but most nights she would center our conversations around my antisocial attitude, and all her problems. I was depressed all the time, then found out she was going behind my back telling people how I'm a negative presence to be around. These are people I still have to live around. I never went along with her, which just added to her hatred of me. I wasn't going to do immoral things, just because that's what she didn't like about me. All I asked of her was a couple roommate things, like dry off so water doesn't get on my art, and to accept that I'm a certain way and just deal.
My dad... I'm the best daughter one day (someone to be proud of), and the next day, I forget to do a little something or say something in slightly bad tone (not intentional)... I get to hear all the yelling and insulting words about how disappointing I am "but even though your like that I'll still love you." He doesn't mean to do it, and he's a good guy. He's been better this past year too... it just still hurts. I remember how it felt like my existence was nothing more than a mistake. I couldn't do anything, so why did I try so hard?
I'm still like that. I can't help but want to make people happy. I can't be happy if I feel I'm making people miserable.